Archive for October, 2012

Breaking up Cobwebs: Another New Beginning.

Saturday, October 27th, 2012

I’m going to dust myself off and pick up that ole writing thing that I take a swing at every blue moon.
Because, remember, I Wanna Be a Writer

SO. I’m intending to do the National Novel Writing Month Project this year! It’s a chance to channel writing into legible form. My choosing to do this is rather short notice, realistically I should have been planning to do NaNoWriMo at least a month or so ago.

This year has whizzed by.

If you’re interested in this too, start here

My brother is going to set up a separate blog off so that I can keep my novel writing apart from the rest of whatever it is I post here!

I’ll be writing about my recent desire to start a business, which is news to you! How it began is by one day walking by a building that has always been there, just brought out by a fresh coat of paint. I noticed it and felt so drawn to it! Immediately I began thinking of what I could do with the space, starting of course with wondering what it is that I care about that other people might also.

The Object of November with this project is just to write as fast as possible, high word count, unedited one post daily. December is editing month. Every day correct the corresponding day of November.

Thursday it begins. I’ll let you know the web address that I will be using. You know how sloppy my work can be. You’re welcome to laugh–it’s not like I can see you or anything.

The Realist

Thursday, October 18th, 2012

Not only does Diederick have a new interest in drawing, he loves it and is becoming more and more detail oriented in his work. My six year old wants to have everything true to life as best as he is able.

Tuesday I found him taking a picture of his face then carefully making an oval with erasable marker on his little white board. He asked me to take pictures of different body parts so that he could copy them into self portrait.

The smile was big, the arms long and the feet ginormous, the ears twice the size of the head. One hand in his picture had ten fingers, the other had six. I wish I’d gotten a photo of the finished product. But he erased the work in half the time that it took him to make. Next came a picture of clouds with a rainbow, although it was just black pen on purple backing, it was cheery as ever was one in the sky after a refreshing rain. Loving this boys art.

Also, I’m Not Quitting

Sunday, October 14th, 2012

It’s Sunday night and I’m thinking about my last blog post’s title. If I had a Facebook page for this blog, I wouldn’t be proud of saying that.

My kitchen is every night far from spotless. My daughter says that she prefers her room messy.
So what? That’s not the end, every day is a new beginning. I’m hoping that’s the case!! That I get another chance.

There’s a fresh color of paint for the basement bathroom. I wanna be the one to put it on, and yes, I’m looking forward to finishing up that pile of shirts that need to be ironed.

In the morning I’m going to serve my son breakfast, make sure his clothes are as close to best as they’ll be; we’ll go brush teeth and I’ll smile at how meticulous he is with his hair combing job. I’ll give him a kiss, and remind him to turn in the book that he brought home.

Monday’s are special because my Carly hasn’t started her school week yet. She gets to sleep in and just enjoy being with “the little kids”. She loves our parakeets Mustard Seed and Blue Bear as well as drawing or playing with her animals and dolls. During the summer she rode bike quite a bit with her brother and the neighbor children. As the weather is getting cooler she’s much more preferring to be at home.

(Self portrait by my two year old)

Koen is my shadow, and is becoming a little photographer. Actually I really don’t mind him using the camera. Without a doubt, his pictures are my favorites. That being said, I have to delete quite a number of pictures before I put my camera card in the computer to transfer pictures since he so enjoys taking pictures of the birds! I only need so many of them.

Yes, that Abegayle Joy! What an appropriate middle name we landed for that girl. She is an absolute joy, just a ray of sunshine in our lives. I could say that a million times over. And to watch her grow? Such a gift. All of us purely adore her.

With that, I’m ready for another day. To embrace yet again tomorrow, whatever little details it’ll hold for me.

(Diederick washing his bike this summer, I have to note this since it very clearly looks like he’s doing something else :P )

I’m Not Good Enough

Friday, October 12th, 2012

I missed posting about that Big Boy’s first day of school. I didn’t take pictures of the paintings that he brought home; I haven’t bragged about how well my Big Girl is doing in preschool. I haven’t told you that my Baby Girl is Seven months old now, that she has five teeth and weighs 17lbs, is nearly crawling. And that Koen, he’s Three years old next week.

Depressing subject line? I feel like I have a right to it today. I’m still soaking in self pitty over the failure of something that I put a lot of effort into, yes I am…
When I try to raise myself up GOD pushes me down, keeps me looking for the answers.
Over and over it’s come to Me, find joy in Me.
Matthew 11:28 is for this blogger, once again. “Come unto me, all you that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”

I have to bring myself up. My brother used to say, When you write it, write again and I do that over and over to you oh returning reader if you’re there.

I write about self doubt, don’t I? And one day, it’ll make me lose everything.
What I need to get back to is writing about the daily stuff, put up those videos and daily moments that make this the obvious happy life that is beyond anything that I could dream of.

When I get low, how is it that there’s a little smiling child needing my help. A child given to me by the LORD to care for. Good Lord, there are four children. There’s a house and a husband, a good routine and more than anything a GOD who gives me all things that I need, leaving nothing wanting.
Diederick is 6. Carly is 4. Koen’s almost 3. And Abegayle is the better part of 1 year old.

It’s not, “I’m Not Good Enough” It’s “I’m Enough”

Lift up your eyes to the heavens, and look upon the earth beneath: for the heavens shall vanish away like smoke, and the earth shall wax old like a garment, and they that dwell therein shall die in like manner: but my salvation shall be for ever, and my righteousness shall not be abolished. Isaiah 51:6

Words of encouragement to mothers who lose their focus, click here and find solace in this lady’s sanity.

Now that I’ve written this, I’m going to press publish and turn around and address the disagreement brewing between Carly and her younger brother. I’m going to go downstairs and fold a load of laundry, put the washer load in the dryer. Then after those clean cloths are put away I’ll clean the bathrooms.
By the time that’s done I’ll start dinner, then put away more laundry. We’ll eat, do bath time, then to bed.
I’ll tell the kids that they had better get good sleep because tomorrow Uncle Mitch and Auntie-to-Be Amy will be visiting Grampa and Gramma’s.

8:15PM: My baby and youngest son and big girl Carly are asleep. Three loads of laundry put away, one waiting. I’m watching a Law and Order episode, with 3 hours until Darren gets home. I’ll close my eyes for a moment after this episode is done, then finish up whatever’s left of the day. Tomorrow’s a new start, with a happier blog post. :-)