lonely already

Well I’ve done it.

Scheduled a flight for Darren to go out to Washington for a week. I’m excited that he’s going out there and will check out some job possibilities. While I wouldn’t be totally bummed if we stay here, I really wouldn’t be upset if we moved back “home” either! :)
When I got married and packed my things to move to New York I really thought that I’d never go back.

The really big deal is that I’ve told Darren that Deeder can come too. I can’t believe I did that! I miss him already! My baby. What will I do without him? I know he’ll be well taken care of…
Aunties galore and GrammaMomma who knows everything that there is to know about kids. A nice doggie and plenty of kitties to play with. A wonderful big yard…
What if he can’t sleep without me? What if he refuses to eat? Oh dear!

When Deeder was born he had trouble feeding and it was just a struggle…sad and frustrating, tiring and so annoying! We had the hardest time (I know it could have been worse) working as a team but no one other than myself seemed super concerned. The nurse told me that in less than two months we’d be perfect and that I wouldn’t be able to imagine life without Deeder. And she was so right! I haven’t been away from him for more than 2 1/2, maybe three hours–each moment’s been awesome.
Today was extra kisses and hugs from Mommy. Me telling Deeder that I’m going to miss him and that I love him. He must have thought that I was being silly because he just pushed away more intent on playing than paying any attention to me.

He’s a big boy now! It’s just Mommy who worries!

Deeder in WA last May

6 Responses to “lonely already”

  1. Gramma Momma says:

    Diederick has grown up so much in the past year. What a big boy he is now. :)
    Well, you ARE brave. I couldn’t bear to be separated from you children when you were little. You will have little Carly to get to know, though, and your right that the Aunties will delight in Diederick.
    We’ll be sure to buy Darren’s favorite ice cream, and treat him royally. :) Hopefully we’ll get to see you and Carly before too long.

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  2. Jennifer says:

    You’re much braver than I am! I couldn’t bare not taking Aidan with my mom and I on our last trip to Seattle, even though he added a heightened stress level while at the hospital I just couldn’t leave him!

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  3. Wendy says:

    Good for you:) I know that you will miss him, but you will love having the alone time with Carly!! Of course your family will make sure to keep him busy.

    Wendy’s last blog post..Oh so boring!!

  4. Laura says:

    thanks guys! I just called the airline to register deeder as a ‘lap child’ so he’ll be there. :)

  5. Rebecca says:

    Huggles… I can’t imagine!

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  6. Kathie says:

    My husband took J to visit extended family for a long weekend last month. I was SO worried, but they did GREAT. There were lots of aunts around to help out. I talked with J on the phone every day and was so glad to have them back:). It probably will be wonderful to have some quiet time to get to know Carly.

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